omg...okay, I am over that little boy that has been getting on my nerves.

I have a crush and he is totally nice and funny and everything. He is amazing and I think he likes me. He is always at my locker(which we share now) lol and he asked me for my facebook and number. We knew each other from last year and just have started to talk lately. I can't stop thinking about him and when I thinking about him, I can't wipe off the smile that is constantly on my face. I hope what I am feeling is real and I'm not over reading it. For Christ's sakes! He made me a ringtone with a nickname he made me! haha

 I'm getting tired of this boy...he is so obsessed with me it's not even funny. He keeps asking for my number...even once gave me his number in front of the whole class. I was so embarassed I couldn't say no in front of everyone. So I took it and threw it away after class when he wasn't looking. You see, he asked me out the 2nd week of school. I thought he was the sweetest guy, so I said yeah. Not even two days later, he was saying how he wanted to have sex with me because he loved me. 

Back the heck up.-----I KNOW he wasn't talking about ME. You can best believe I dumped his butt the next day when I saw him. He knows what happened to me when I was in the 6th grade. Oh no buddy, he got me all wrong.  I plan on saving it for my husband when I get married one day.

I know there are some who haven't waited, and I have no problem against them, I have friends who did it, but they wished they waited. It just hurt me that he asked me that. When I told my friends, they wanted to beat the living sh-t out of him. haha, they wasn't about to let him get off like that after hurting my feelings. Lets just say I had to talk my friend out of saying something to him. I have to be in artclass with him for the rest of the year. 

So yeah, I had to rant because it was bothering me. Now I feel better. haha

If someone says that they need to talk to me, I will automatically think someone I know died, or a guy wants to break up with me, or something of that sort. When someone says they need to talk to you, it normally means something bad. :(

Okay…I haven’t written on here in a long time…

 

I guess I’ll update on some of the stuff that has happened. I am so love sick. I keep on seeing couples all around the darn school! And then it reminds me of Malcam and I can’t stop smiling. I get so excited every time I see him. Butterflies fluttering in my stomach. I just can’t stop thinking of him. I just love every thing about him…his eyes, his personality, his smile. Is this love or just a crush?

 

Okay, enough of the lovey dovey stuff. Um…oh yeah!!! If you are still reading this…I am making a get well scrapbook for Mariska. She is getting better now, but I started this scrapbook in January since she went to the hospital then…but I hardly have any letters. So I need lots more. If you all can help, then that would be fabulous. I want to give it to her soon, so PLEASE…I need your help!!!

 

Here is my YouTube video giving you all the details. Send me an comment either on here or on YouTube and type the letter.

Speaking of Mariska and SVU. Gah…I’m so upset. Mariska and Chris are still negotiating their contracts for staying on SVU. They want more money if they are going to stay. I understand. Taking care of their families. But NBC needs to get it together and realize that they have two of the best actors on SVU and that if they let Mariska and Chris go, then the ratings will go down. I mean if  Chris goes, then I will be sad because who will have the same chemistry like Elliot and Olivia? But if Mariska leaves, I’m done for. Mariska is the reason I started watching SVU in the first place. She is my inspiration. But I would understand if she left because she said she wanted to spend more time with Peter and August. I do respect her for that, so yeah.

 

Well, that was the end of my rant for the day. Hopefully I’ll update soon. But yeah… Don’t forget to send a letter for Mariska!

I haven't had the best of weeks but it's okay.

Okay...I will set the stage. I like this guy named Malcam. He is super nice and cute. haha But anyways, I told him a couple of weeks ago that I liked him. All of my friends know I like him. This girl named Amber** used to date his twin brother Malachi

Yesterday, one of my so called "friend" Amber**(same girl) came to me after school telling me that she was moving next week. Here is our conversation...

Amber- Hey bashia! Guess what?
Me- What?
Amber- My friends and I have figured the reason why Malcam hated me when I was dating his brother( Malachi)
Me- (getting confused)
Amber- Well, we figured he has a crush on me. I am moving next week so I am going to tell him that and see how he reacts. And then I'm going to ask him if he has a crush on me.
Me-(hurting inside) Really?
Amber- Yeah. But I just really thinks he likes me.
Me- Crying on the bus all the way home because I felt betrayed.

She knew I liked him. Why would she go and ask the guy I like if he has a crush on her. I wouldn't do that to one of my friends. That's just an unspoken rule you don't break.

Well, my friends are mad as hell. And I'm glad she is moving. I just wanna know what he says cause I know she will tell me.

Well, today I didn't see her so I was happy. I had fun with my crazy friends wearing green and everything... haha
My friends have made my day much better. It just comes to show who your real friends are.

Well, Hope you all have had a great Saint Patty's Day!

**name has been changed.

 I am very excited because I am turning 17 in 12 days!!!! yes I counted the days.